I consider myself neither an optimist nor a pessimist. I am generally practical in my outlook of things. The glass is neither half empty, nor half full, but at half capacity. Yes I prefer looking at things positively, it feels better, but I am not inclined, in general to do so, though events may affect my mood one way or the other.
Probably the best event for doing so is the onset of Spring. It is my favorite season and the fact that it is nearly here has me in a better mood. The world comes alive in March (at least in the Northern Hemisphere, I hope you folks south of the equator have the opportunity to enjoy September) and I come alive with it. The possibilities for the coming months start racing through my head and I write to-do lists for myself. The rest of you can have your New Years resolutions, I have my March Makeover. This is my to-do list for the rest of this year:
Make this blog my job
It’s a ways off yet, but I know I can do this. I just have to invest time, a bit of money, and a truckload of creativity. The latter I know I have to spare, or at least I tell myself. The first doesn’t come without the second. To that end if any of you want to help with that (hint-hint) there’s a nice “Donate” button on the right. I want to give this site a new look and a renewed purpose. If nothing else, I need to put aside some funds every week until I can afford the upgraded services WordPress offers. I really believe that I can make this happen, with help, by the end of the year if not sooner. Who knows, maybe I’ll get a Kickstarter or something similar going.
Put out at least one book of poetry
I could probably do this now. I have two for sale already (again… ahem… hint-hint) but you have to keep moving forward right? I just need to take the time to either a) write more poems that go with the one of two themes I have planned for a book or b) just put out a book of the best overall work I have not already put into print, themes be damned. I would rather do the former. I have already mentioned that the incomparable Tom Holmes (really if you don’t buy my books, buy his, the dude is amazing) and I have discussed paleo-poetics quite a bit. I would like to do a book of just that.
Go back to school
A family health crisis and the ensuing chaos around it forced me to leave school a semester shy and kept me in too much of a daze to think about my school loans. Now I am in default and have no way to return. Or so I thought. I need to get my financial information organized so I can apply for Federal consolidation loans. I really would love to get an advanced degree, but finishing that bachelors, which I came so close to, comes first. This is mostly a just get up off my ass and stop being afraid of being let down sort of thing. So yeah, Buff State students, hope you look forward to sharing a class with this old lady next fall.
Submit! Submit! Submit!
No, not to anyone’s demands, but to journals, contests or whoever may print my work, with or without compensation. I need to get my name out there, and the only way to do it, is to put it out there. Again, fear of being let down is the only thing holding me back.
Seriously. I need to get my weight down and my energy up. That means going veg again (maybe vegan, though I doubt it.) I have a bit of meat in my fridge, once that’s gone I’m done. I had more energy when I was in my four-month vegan experiment than I ever had before, time to jump back on that wagon. Also, yeah, exercise would probably also be in order.
Take that next step in my transition
I have been spinning my wheels since coming out almost ten years ago. This year, with or without (though preferably with) the help of a physician I am starting my HRT. Kinda sick of the yucky boy body. This is not who I am and I am tired of wanting to cry every fourth shower I take.
I am sure there are other things I could add to this, but these are the biggies. Like I said, Spring brings this out in me, and every once in a while these to-do lists take (I am still taking my writing seriously and doing a little every day just like I told myself to three years ago.) Tell me, what would be on your to-do list?